Well, first off, Happy New Year, ToggleDragon in the future!
Hopefully, separating yourself from the internet helped you to focus on your identity. I know of two other people I chat with who do that every couple of months to sort of detox from the 'The Online'. I had no access to internet until I was well into my teens, so I had plenty of time to develop a rather concrete identity that I am now too lazy to change. At best, I can metaphorically bite my tongue, but that's not so much becoming a different self as it is offering less of my current self.
"a bit ironic, considering that it is supposed to be christmas time.."
Actually, when dad was a therapist, he had to be on call 24/7 during the holidays because of how much stress the holidays created for people. If there was ever a time to step back and take a break for self care, this would be it. Good on you, TD.
As of you reading this, I will have worked on Christmas since I no longer have family to be with anymore. It wasn't "wonderful", but it was easy money. As a result, I am expecting someone else to experience a doubly wonderful Christmas to compensate for the lacking wonderment in my own. That's how it works, right? Maybe?
SouSTAR
I think you should just take a rest.
Of course the way we talk in person and online is different. Anonymity, not having someone face to face, things like that, influence the way we express ourselves, for the better (being more open...) or the worst (harassment....)
Just know that if you feel overwhelmed/confused, then taking a rest and a pause is very important :)
Take care! :)