this is basically just my last post but a bit more in depth. i wanted to make a news update about this specifically a couple days ago, but I decided to wait in case it got better. i waited. it did not get better.

i am lost in every aspect possible. i decided that if I take a break on stressors and focus on the important things, i will be able to make my own path out of this mess and stop being so confused about everything. one of those stressors happens to be internet interaction. i know that simply taking a short break from the internet isn't really going to change anything major, but it is enough to stop myself from procrastonating further and start taking real action before things get even worse. for refrence, currently i can't tell if the way i talk in person and online is genuine or if this is all just a delusion and I am an entirely different entity from who i think i am, or who i say i am, or who everyone else says i am

this is a bit ironic, considering that it is supposed to be christmas time..

do not worry about me too much, i will do my best to survive. if you continue to worry, please see this as new lore about toggle's backstory that just dropped

i hope you have a wonderful christmas and a happy new year.

PS: if you decide to write a comment here, i won't look at it until january 2nd or so. i will look at it and most likely react to it, but it will be very late.